I have gotten my pain management appointment moved up.

One postive move that has happened is that I got my pain managment appointment moved up to this Wednesday at 8:30 AM. I hope she can help. I found out that she is a Podiatrist???????? I am so confused. I thought she was an anethesiologist. Well if a foot doctor can take away the pain in my urethral area than she deserves the doctor of the year award! Unfortunately, I have to suffer until I can see her. Each minute is torture. I just ordered several different catheter types from my supply company so they will be here before I leave for NYC on Thursday. I wanted to have catheters wtih me of all types in case my surgeon's office doesn't have what I need for what is comfortable to me. I also ordered stoma covers since my urostomy tube will be coming out Friday and it will need a cover. I had to do all of the research on my own as usual because I don't have an ET nurse and it will be too late by the time I have my appointment. In case I leak I don't want to leak all over the Ferry to Staten Island on the way home. I wanted to be prepared the best way I could and I did that. I am doing everything I can think of to help myself through this. It sure is a lonely place.Unfortunately, I have to suffer until I can see her.

This song sums it up the best:

"Is anybody out there
Does anybody see
That when the lights are off something's killing me
I know it seems like people care
Cause they're always around me
But when the day is done and everybody runs
Who will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
When the show is over
And it's empty everywhere
It's hard to face going back alone
So I walk around the city
Anything, anything to clear my head
I've got nowhere to go nowhere but home
Who will be the one who's there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
It may seem I have everything
But everything means nothing
When the ride that you've been on
That you're coming off
Leaves you feeling lost
Is anybody out there
Does anybody see
That sometimes loneliness is just a part of me"
(CATCH ME WHEN I FALL) by ASHLEE SIMPSON

Kara